Past few weeks and friends,

I may seem mature and calm, but I have my moments. OK, I made a mistake...I did something wrong and am getting punished for it. I find it funny because, well, I don't really know. I owe mom 165 dollars because I made so many phone calls! They were long distance. It was fun talking to my friends and daddy for a while, but it pays. I don't like these outrageous prices for communication. Annywaaaay, well. I'm washing dishes every day now, and mom is reducing the price to pay for the phone calls. I don't like the dishes, but, I do them anyway. It's kinda fun, to know that I will need that skill, gotta learn how to be independant. It's fun, these days growing up. I guess that's what friends are for...to help you grow up. I don't want to grow up. We get into tons of trouble but it's cool you know, it helps you gain worthwhile memos. I have had many friends move away. Megan was only 11 when she moved, and I was 12... imagine that, she's thirteen now, and I have no idea what she looks like. She was seriously unique and beautiful. We did about everything together, bus rides, running, playing, spent lots of time together. She had short brown hair and hazel eyes...I bet she's beautiful now. Another friend is Haily W. and she was a blond, with blue eyes. She another best friend. She was 13, and I was 12, when she moved. I haven't had contact with her lately, so I think so forgot. I dropped out of her world. Suzanne had waist length hair, and brown eyes. Her brother is such a dork! Haha, they moved to NM, and I contact her every now and then...we had such fun with Hannah, Hannah and Emmie. Hannah B. moved away to Germany, we talked a while back, but there's been no contact. It's like every time I get close to some one, they just up and leave... it kind of hurts, this loneliness. Hannah H. and Emmie don't understand me. Katherine thinks I crossed over to the dark side. Yes, I'm confused too. Life is so weird!